for the first time in 4 years ive been sober from everything (nicotine, weed, shrooms, cocaine, speed, adderal, acid, and alcohol) for over 10 days and i am fucking DYING. Quitting was NOT my plan and i had no choice. Currently waiting on an order of weed and shrooms for the last week, absolutely withdrawing

how anyone lives like this baffles me, life is shit and doing anything fucking sucks major dick, especially programming. ive just been bed rotting and cutting myself to get some sort of high from it, barely does anything. this shit is hell

sorry for the rambling but im going insane~

bai bai luv u all readers mwah mwah :3